Difficult questions

Recently I've been asked a few difficult but challenging questions which I thought I'd share.

What is you get out of being submissive?

Good question. I've debated over and over again whether I actually am submissive or not and I still don't have the answer. But a large draw of submission, at least to my mind, is the freedom and liberation of having to make one choice: yes or no. In my "real" life I have a lot going on - most people do! I analyze and make decisions based upon the information available at the time and my own judgement of a situation. This can become mentally exhausting and when my partner "takes control" I no longer have to actively plan, analyze or prepare. I can just enjoy or, if I don't enjoy, say Stop. Besides, I derive extreme pleasure in knowing that I have pleased my partner whether it's how I dress or giving a mind blowing BJ. I'm not sure that this indicates submissive behavior or simple courtesy, but it is what it is.

What would you want to do if you could do anything?

When I was asked this question all I did was blink stupidly. The sad truth came like a bolt of lightening - I had no idea. I don't do much for myself besides reading lots and lots of book, taking an occasional really long bubble bath and drinking sometimes copious amounts of alcohol (okay - maybe that is really just a form of escape). I go out with friends and, weather permitting, hike and I while I certainly enjoy these activities, that really wasn't the point of the question. All I could think of was check on my mom, make sure the family is taken care of, feed the dog, earn enough money to support us all. So now I'm thinking about this. I've always wanted to learn how to throw pots and learn how to dance (went to a class once and had a panic attack, though) but I really just don't know - which brings up my question to all of you.

If YOU could do anything you wanted to do just for yourself, what would it be?